Paper #2

Bi – Sexual?

“It was getting late I guess, but it was only twelve. I was heading back to the hotel when I passed by this funny looking place, night club probably. It had bright lights that were odd colors and said “citoxe” it didn’t really make sense to me but after looking at it for some time I realized it spelt exotic backwards. If it spells exotic backwards as its name it’s worth a try, plus the night wasn’t going to bring anything else fun.
I walked inside the nightclub and looked around. It was a little dark. On my left was a bar, on my right were some chairs and a table and down the hall I could see some glass. So I walked down the hall and found there were girls inside the glass dancing on poles. I went down the line till the last box and found it was a guy. I looked around and put money into the slot and he looked at me and started to dance.
I felt kind of weird doing this especially since it was a guy. I was the youngest guy there, well look wise because there were some pretty old guys. You would expect to see these guys at home eating dinner with their wife or something. But yeah anyways I kept watching this man dance around the brass pole. It intrigued me it really did what was his reason for being here? Well I was getting a kick out of it just watching him. But after watching him for ten minutes or so I started to feel sexual. I got scared so I got up and walked out of the night club and sat on the curbside. What was I doing? It was bad enough paying the man and watching him dance, but to get aroused by him? Am I gay or bi or something?
Jeeze, I really need a drink after this. I walked down the street and went into a little food store and bought a 6 pack of beers that I thought I would bring back to the hotel and drink. Instead I just decided to sit out on the curb and drink, I mean who was gonna tell me not to? I'd look like a casual sense there were homeless people doing it. A man sat down and asked "may I join you for a drink?" I replied "not at all" and handed him a beer. We introduced ourselves and I found out he was a 27-year old guy and had just lost his job. We kept blabbering along and I found out that we had a lot in common. After a couple hours we decided to leave and I said good-bye and walked away. I felt like I had made a new friend and I felt warm inside knowing that that man was a lot like me and we had a lot of things in common. But I felt weird because I thought I heard him say he had lost his job because of being gay. But I really couldn’t remember I was too drunk."


Why does Holden always plan to have sex with a girl but never sees it through? Do you think that Holden could actually be Bi – Sexual and is confused about what is right for him? For my paper I decided to write a missing scene from The Catcher In The Rye. This section was about how Holden is about to go back to the hotel but decides to visit another nightclub. He then goes inside and sees a male pole dancer and instead of watching the women pole dancers he watches the man. Then I’ll show how he is intrigued by this man and then catches himself watching a man and realizing that he could be bi. He also decides to buy a pack of beer and drink it and then a man joins him and they connect great.
Is the idea of Holden being bi – sexual too far fetched? In my opinion I think it’s a reasonable hypothesis and there are some instances that could help support my theory. Some evidence that would help is that he always plans to have sex but never does. He either makes up a reason why he can’t or he just doesn’t feel like doing it. If he’s always complaining about not doing but does do it when he has the chance then what’s wrong with him? I think he was confused with himself on his sexuality and was thinking about a guy while he was thinking about sex.